SELF LOVE

                                


When an individual spiritually awakens, he often finds himself plagued guilt and remorse with regard to certain actions taken in the past.  He begins to realize how he could have better handled these situations.  New insights often bring with them a sense of embarrassment, regret, and even self-loathing for actions taken or words spoken; actions that may or may not of resulted in pain and difficulties for another.  It is important to understand that past actions reflect of our state of consciousness at that time; beliefs often held with a self-righteousness disregard for the feelings and beliefs of the other.  These actions often  alienated those we thought we are “helping” in the egotistical belief that we were showing them the “right” way (our way) of doing, or living, or believing, while we may actually have been functioning as enablers, or simply self-righteous “know it all” .  We thought of ourselves as “loving” and helpful, but now, seeing with “new eyes”, we find ourselves shocked by some of the things we said or did.  We begin to see clearly how in reality we only helped our own ego and now we become very uncomfortable with ourselves.  It is like a light bulb has gone off in our thinking which causes us to feel very humiliated by past actions; we don’t like ourselves very much.

Self loathing reflects the energy of the third dimension (duality and separation) and is an expression of the universal but impersonal belief; “You never will be good enough”.  The manifestations of this false belief are experienced physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually by everyone choosing to live completely in and of the energy of duality and separation; that is if you believe it, it is yours.

Those who live completely in a physical state of consciousness, (all pains and pleasures are in and of the physical), will compare their physical body with current concepts  as presented by Hollywood, the fashion industry, and work out gurus,   which will result  in the conclusion that  “I am too fat, my hair is not right, my body isn’t perfect etc. etc.” or if you are a man, “my body isn’t muscular enough, I am losing hair”, or  “I don’t make enough money”.   All this in turn leads to negative behaviors like starving oneself,   gulping down steroids, or being dishonest in desperate attempts to be accepted (loveable).

Emotionally, each culture is bombarded as to what proper and acceptable emotions are regarding almost everything.  If we discover that we are somehow out of sync with these acceptable emotions then we find ourselves out of the acceptable “loop”.  Romance novels, movies, magazines, and TV shows all promote concepts of what love is and what we are supposed to feel in every situation.  Pharmaceutical and illegal drug industries have created a gold mine for themselves through the presentation of “out of the norm” emotions as a reason for drug use while ignoring basic underlying causes.

On a mental level, we school our children from the day they are born to learn; pushing them frequently beyond what is appropriate to keep busy acquiring knowledge in order to be acceptable (loveable).  We have organizations created solely to support and feed the egos of those with high IQ levels which qualify them to be members.  We give awards and credits for being smart in a “book learning” way while disregarding or looking down on those who may actually flow with true wisdom.
 
Spiritually, as we awaken to the truth of our true nature and find ourselves beginning to regret some past actions, self-loathing may rear its ugly head.  If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot love another (oneness) but how do we love such an unworthy person as we have just discovered ourselves to be?  Spiritually, we are required only to live out from our highest state of realized consciousness which is exactly what we were doing at the times we now feel guilt about.  If we were to take those same actions today, in our new and higher state of consciousness, then it would be an error-a step backward.  We would do things differently now because of our new and higher state of awareness.

It is hardly surprising that so many  despise themselves and silently suffer from the belief that they have somehow failed; not realizing that this is what the “earth experience” is actually all about; finding truth while living in  the duality and separation of third dimensional energy.  

Physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual concepts are all expressions of a belief in duality and separation -third dimensional energy.  However, they are not our beliefs until we accept them, even though they may feel personal to us.   All third dimensional concepts are in and of a universal (there is only ONE) but impersonal consciousness presenting to us every belief ever believed or thought of.  There is only ONE consciousness, but now it is colored by the acceptance of duality and separation.  When we spiritually awaken, we begin to see beyond these false concepts and beliefs; realizing that they are fed solely from the energy of our belief in them. “There is no unexpressed consciousness”-Joel S. Goldsmith

Mankind in general, does not yet realize its Oneness with Source (God) and all life, and so compares and makes judgments based on erroneous data.  We chose to enter the third dimensional experience for those lessons we ourselves knew we needed, but once here, we forget and begin to accept world beliefs without question.  Many get lost in the “crap” of “this world”, while at the same time on a Soul level; they struggle to embrace their true nature which is Love (oneness). 

Everyone yearns to be accepted (loved) because Oneness is our true nature.   Oneness is translated and manifested through the state of consciousness of the individual.  For example-A suicide bomber feels the need to be accepted and honored, and is doing what he believes to be a brave and righteous act.  His desire to experience oneness (acceptance and love) is being translated and is manifesting through his un-evolved and very third dimensional state of consciousness.

Duality/separation consciousness preaches loudly to us from the pulpit of appearances.  It is now time to reclaim ourselves from all that we have given our power to-- churches,  governments,  experts, friends, family, and anyone or anything that says we must believe, say, or do as they do, or we are not acceptable and worthy of love- Gods’ or another’s.  Love (Oneness) is our true nature, but we have given it away by allowing ourselves to be validated from outside of ourselves.  We believed when we were told that we were worms in the dust,   and have thus have been unable to love and accept ourselves as anything more.

Remember this when world beliefs present themselves for acceptance or rejection.  Do not accept at face value everything you see, hear, taste, touch, or smell, but instead always go within knowing;

I ALREADY AM, ALWAYS HAVE BEEN, AND ALWAYS WILL BE THE MANIFESTATION OF SOURCE, AND NOTHING OUTSIDE OF MYSELF CAN CHANGE THAT.


                                                                                                                11-24-09






                                                                                
                                                              ABUNDANCE



Everyone is concerned about money these days and for good reason, the financial system as we have known it, is collapsing.  Life has become a whole new ball game with new changes each day.  The world is evolving into a new, higher energy vibration, and the old ways are no longer being supported in this new energy.  Those who believe they control all the financial strings, are frantically trying to rearrange cards in a house of cards based in third dimensional energy which can  no longer be supported in the new energies. 

We are used to living from a consciousness of "I don't have, therefore I will do what it takes to get, even if it means stepping on you to get it".  This reflects the old energy of duality and separation "I am separate from what I need."  The world is moving into an energy of Oneness (fifth dimensional energy)  and businesses built on a foundation of service and manifesting a  flow of give and take (love and gratitude),  will survive  because they are functioning in the new energy.  But businesses that see only from the consciousness of; “I don't have so will do what it takes to get" (duality and separation) are the businesses that will be unable to survive a shift into the higher frequencies.

We are graduating beyond all we have ever known and it is difficult.  Lifetime after lifetime we have survived by using the tools of the old energy and it is hard to leave behind that which has always been known,  even if the familiar was and still is,  painful or difficult.  We are moving into the realization of who we really are, who and what Source (God) is, and why we are here.  We begin to question as to why we must experience so many of the struggles we seem find ourselves engaged in.

Every individual on earth chose to evolve through this energy of duality and separation; our being here is not random.  The process of remembering our spiritual identity is difficult because there is a "veil of forgetting" in place on earth which we knew about and accepted before incarnating. This forgetting of who we are and why we are here forces us to dig deep within ourselves for answers.  The evolutionary journey takes many, many, lifetimes and many, many, different experiences in order for us to awaken.  There are those on earth who are just beginners but there are also many who are now ready to graduate into a higher sense of abundance or supply.  The popular DVD “The Secret" reveals only the first step, that which tells us that we can and must take our power back.  It shows us that we have always been in charge of ourselves, but we didn't know it. 

Mind is the substance of matter.  Mind forms outer experiences from our consciousness and if our consciousness if filled with hundreds of beliefs about lack and limitation, then that is the state of consciousness that  the mind has to work with,  and which is in turn reflected outwardly.  There really are no victims which is a hard pill to swallow for the many that base their identity and validation in victim-hood.  This is also the answer to that question asked by so many; "Why does God allow suffering"?  God doesn't, Divine Consciousness knows Itself and Its manifestations-perfect and complete.  If Divine Consciousness embodied lack and limitation, or disease for that matter, there would be no way these things could ever be changed because everything in and of Source Consciousness, is infinite and governed by Law.

Abundance is all its forms is the outer manifestation of the realization that we are sparks of a Self-sustained, Self-maintained Source Consciousness.  Could an Omnipresent, Omnipotent, Omniscient, Creator Source Consciousness lack?  If it could, then we do not have and omnipresent, omnipotent, or omniscient Creator.  If I embody all that God is, then I must come to understand what this means. I begin to contemplate the activity, law, power, and presence of God as it would express in my own being and nature.

This is mysticism.

Earth University is not for the faint of heart, it takes work, prayer, meditation, a personal commitment to spiritual evolution, and a willingness to change our whole way of thinking.  However, once the intention has been made, guidance is ever present and abundant.   Beings of Light are ever ready and anxious to help us move forward and our Higher Selves  begin to feed us the tools and information necessary.  Situations of financial crisis act as spurs for many to awaken to the deeper truths. 

God is Self-sustained and Self-maintained, but you ask; "What does this have to do with me?"  Well, if my real self is the manifestation of this Creator energy, then I am also self-sustained and self-maintained.  "Ha," you say, "not me, I don't have two nickels to rub together".  Mind forms from our state of consciousness translating it in ways we can understand.   When we believe; " I don't have two nickels to rub together", that is exactly what is being created.  Mind is the substance of matter.  Be ever alert to what you are thinking and stating.

Once we understand this, we can devote ourselves to knowing truth and evolving our state of consciousness. This doesn't mean we stop taking the human footsteps necessary to get things rolling.   Those who try to live out from the absolute intellectual knowledge, find that it doesn't work until we have actually achieved the absolute state of consciousness which is not simply an intellectual knowledge.
The process is to remind ourselves of who we really are in our true spiritual essence, and this means. Then we contemplate, meditate, and know the truth behind every day living.  As we go about our day, doing ordinary things like paying our bills, working, raising families, and playing; we are remembering that our paycheck, job, creative ideas, joy etc.  is not coming from someone or something outside of ourselves, but is coming through them by virtue of my own Divine completeness (that which I really am) which draws to me (Itself) that which I need.

With time, truth begins to move from an intellectual knowledge to our actual state of Consciousness and it is then that we will see our outer world changing to reflect this.  This is spiritual evolution and is why we are here.
The secret of abundance in all things is this;      That which I am seeking, I AM."  
                                                                                                    (Quote from Joel S. Goldsmith-Infinite Way books)                               

                                                                                          8/20/2009  





 
                                               SPIRITUAL SURRENDER



 
                                              
Why is it that at some point spiritual literature always mentions a need for surrender?  We are told to "let go".  What does it mean to surrender and let go?  Does it mean simply to give up; stuffing our emotions and concerns down deep, and just biting our tongue when disturbing events happen?  If we are honest with ourselves, we have to admit that our primary response to reading about surrender is FEAR.  "What…after all my years of meditation, reading, classes, and believing that I must surely now be ready for ascension, I am now expected to just let it all go?   What will happen to the person (me) that I know and love?  What does surrender mean?  Why would I want to surrender?  What the heck am I surrendering?  Is this annihilation?”

Spiritual surrender is not a blind resignation to whatever comes along in our lives-good or bad.  Spiritual surrender is the letting go of all that is not real through the realization of what is real (governed by Divine Law) and what is not. The idea of spiritual surrender does not even present itself to an individual until they are spiritually ready.  Meaning evolved enough to see that the surrendering of old concepts and beliefs is a necessary step in the spiritual journey.  For years the spiritual student may have enjoyed reading metaphysical literature, going to discussion groups and classes, and practicing the latest rituals or spiritual techniques. However, there comes a point in the initiate’s journey when it is time to stop "talking the talk" and begin to "walk the walk" and this is where spiritual surrender enters in.

As  human beings living in third dimensional energy  (duality and separation) we have had lifetimes  learning to  stand firm on issues, and  only surrender our opinions, beliefs, concepts, or ways of seeing after much analysis and consensus of our own or by "experts".  Spiritually surrender is impossible while still engaged with the tools and games of the third dimension.  These ways are the worlds way of coping, survival, and living within third dimensional energy concepts lifetime after lifetime. Spiritual surrender means evolving to a place within ourselves in which we are able and willing to let go of all that is based in the old energy in order that we might move into what is real, that which is  beyond duality and separation. It is the attainment of an ability to see the real behind appearances and not respond but instead rest in trust, surrender, and a letting go of the old.

This spiritual surrender indicates a willingness to leave behind all that we no longer believe to be truth or which serves us.   Our reactions to words, pictures, ideas, and world events are good indicators prompting us to ask ourselves;   "What am I believing that is causing me to feel this way?"  It can be as benign as not liking the dress someone is wearing.  In and of itself the dress is nothing, but if I am labeling the dress or its wearer as good or bad, I am in third dimensional energy (duality and separation).  It is important to remember that the individual is always entitled to their preferences, but that is not judgment of good or bad. "The dress is very interesting, unusual...It would not be my choice…” instead of “That dress is awful, she has no sense of style." It is our conscious withdrawal of power from anything outside of us; all persons, places, or things to which we have in the past, given power to.  I am now ready to surrender old concepts and beliefs, allowing the return of power to Source-within; that which in my true essence, I am.

False concepts and beliefs are universal and impersonal, but become ours when we accept them as true. “What beliefs am I still holding on to that were originally given me by teachers, parents, experts, friends, or religious teachings; and in the light of what I now hold to be true, are these beliefs still relevant in my life?”  This sort of self-questioning takes the seeker deep within and allows him to determine which outgrown beliefs he is still holding on to.   Beliefs can be as benign as believing you absolutely must cook a turkey every Thanksgiving, or as non-benign as hatred of a certain race.   Only each of us alone can determine what it is we need to release; no one can do this for us. There is a book called; "My Stroke of Insight” by Jill Bolte Taylor who suffered a stroke and writes about it. In  her narrative, she minutely examines the antics of her left brain and how easily we get caught in the "games".   Eckart Tolle also examines this subject, especially in his book; "Practicing the Power of Now".

Ego is that aspect of us that believes itself to be separate from Source and all other living things and so must be protected, validated, and must eternally struggle for survival. The bottom line of third dimensional belief system is always, "You will never be good enough."   That is how human beings acquired their sense of insecurity and need to defend the ego.  As we spiritually evolve into an understanding of who and what we really are, this need to protect who we believed we were disappears through a realization that; The I that I really am needs no protection. I am all that is, right now-not after I die and pass a judgment in which I may or may not get admitted to someone's concept of "heaven".

The ego survives on opinions born of beliefs and concepts.  These opinions were valid in the third dimensional energy and often served to keep us safe, but as we move into new and higher energy we no longer need them. Through spiritual evolution, these tools are becoming obsolete for us. We are graduating!  

Spiritual surrender is a conscious releasing of human desires and hopes; made possible through the realization of an omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent Divinity within which manifests outwardly as wholeness and completeness.   I am able to surrender because now I know that IT knows where I belong, how to get me there, how to manifest my highest good, and is actually, the very substance from which it is all formed-Divine Consciousness- my very Selfhood. 

Through the conscious releasing of all that is old within our belief system and the integration of truth, we begin to lose our fears and move into a place of trust.  The process happens without our having to say a holy word, burn a candle, chant a chant, or follow a guru in spite of what the third dimensional world around us may try and make us believe.  Our only job is to manifest our intent to spiritually awaken.  The journey then begins, for we, (not something or someone outside of ourselves), are the creators of our lives.  The Universe hears us; the "train leaves the station". 

Spiritual surrender takes courage and is not for the faint hearted.  At some point we must ask ourselves; "Is there a Source/God/Creator or is there not?"  If there is, then I would have to be in and of it, for there could be nothing separate from Omnipresence and it behooves me then, to move toward, rest in, and surrender to it.

                                                                                                               6-14-09




                                                                                                              
                                                                      GUILT


Guilt is that sense of heaviness and separation experienced when an individual realizes that he has not lived out from his highest level of realized consciousness.

As we spiritually evolve,  old and heavy energies (from our  physical, emotional, and mental bodies over lifetimes) begin to clear, and as they do, we often experience  waves of guilt, depression, anger- negative emotions still resonating within our energy fields. One of the biggest is GUILT. 

As we struggle to live more in Truth, we begin to recall events from our past; words spoken, actions taken, or words and actions not taken.  This is a normal part of spiritual evolution and is revealing to us our progression, because we would not take the same actions again in the light of our new awareness.  Another facet of guilt is the experiencing of anger at ourselves for allowing circumstances or persons in the past to have power over us; thinking "How could I of been so stupid?" or "Why didn't I stand up for myself?"  These memories are coming to our awareness in order to be released and let go of with a sense of gratitude for the lessons learned.  Releasing makes room for the higher resonating frequencies to enter in.

We must begin to acknowledge that we chose to be here on earth in order to evolve to a deeper awareness of Truth and an understanding of who we really are.  We begin to realize that past actions simply reflect the state of consciousness we were at that time and we can forgive ourselves because we was doing what seemed appropriate at that time.

SOURCE (God) neither rewards nor punishes.  God simply infinitely expresses Itself.  
Because the Divine is omnipresent and manifests in infinite form and variety, I (Real Self) must also be the Divine in expression.  That which Source is, I am.  Therefore neither guilt nor any other negative emotions can be a part of my real being, or can it be power over me.  Society, mainly through the teachings of organized religions over centuries, has consistently pushed upon us images of humanity as sin filled failures (according to their narrow and un-evolved beliefs) Most of mankind in ignorance of their own true spiritual power chose to blindly accept this.  The time has come to release these old teachings and concepts, for they are just that, beliefs and concepts. We are ready to understand that any sense of guilt I may experience is based upon a personal comparison of what I know now as with what I knew then.

The belief in duality (two powers) and separation (between all living things as well as Source) is the energy of the third dimension.  This world and all things in it are not the illusion; always it is our concepts of the world that are the illusion. In the third dimension, we look out upon the world as through stained glass, each color a concept or belief given to and accepted by us. Once this is understood, the spiritual student can rest back in silent awareness and begin to understand the nothingness of the emotion called guilt, recognizing that it has no law to support or maintain it.

As I begin to release long held concepts of events, interactions, and individuals and begin to move into spiritual awareness, I gain a deeper understanding of   more appropriate and loving ways of living (rather than the choices made which produced the sense of guilt).  I am able to to love and honor the process of evolution as a tool for learning, instead of holding myself in demeaning and negative guilt for actions taken in the past.  I am able to see how perfectly experiences teach me.  Experiences are necessary in order for mankind to shift into more evolved ways of seeing and being. This is why we chose to be here.

Every new awareness is like a permanent flower blooming along our path toward enlightenment and soon we find that we are surrounded with exquisite flowers of infinite form and variety.
                                                                                                                                         

                                                                                                      6/21/09

                                                                                                      




                                       ACTION VERSUS REACTION:
              HOW TO STAY CENTERED IN THESE TIMES OF SO MUCH                                                                                   NEGATIVITY.

                   
                                                               
How does the spiritual student stay neutral in the presence of so much duality?   That is a question all serious spiritual students are asking in the presence of events in the world at this time.  "In the world, but not of it” is how the Master Jesus presented the goal.

How do I see and experience living in  third dimension (energy of duality and separation in expression) without entering  into it?

As students of Truth, we are taught to stay neutral and interpret world appearances from the higher vantage point of truth instead of from judgment and criticism which is always based in beliefs and concepts.  Whatever negative event, circumstance, or person that I become aware of, is in and of itself neither good nor bad because all that is, is a manifestation of Source.  What we behold is a mind interpretation; the material sense of the appearance (versus spiritual sense of it or truth). The interpretations of an unenlightened mind are always based in duality and separation (third dimensional energy) because that is all we have ever known as human beings.  When we see a tree, we are seeing a concept of the perfect spiritual idea of a tree and we all see the same thing because there is only one mind. 

This does not mean we simply ignore gross injustice, just burying our heads in the sand while shouting that it is only an illusion.  It means we stay centered in truth at all times while doing what needs to be done, if anything. There will be times when we may have to speak firmly, or take forceful steps, but we do it always from a level of unconditional love; which is from a realization that the person, place, or thing we are dealing with is in and of Source- a Divine Idea in expression no matter how low the energy may appear to be.  There are also times when the highest action is no action but to simply rest within regardless of the outer appearances.

Moving into a consciousness of non-duality does not eliminate our joy, for joy is the natural and harmonious energy of being in alignment with what is real-completeness because of Oneness.   Reactions are a good measure of where our sate of consciousness is.  When we react to  persons, places, or things even as small irritations,  this tells us that we are still carrying a judgment of some sort; holding on to a concept of the rightness or wrongness of something (duality).  This is when we must ask ourselves; "What am I believing that is making me feel this way?  In the light of what I know to be truth, is this belief correct?"  This is a process, and doesn’t happen overnight or from just reading a book.  Mankind has been conditioned to believe that everything is black or white and it is difficult to re-train our minds not to interpret in this manner.

Good appearances are just as much illusion as bad appearances, and once we learn to interpret all appearances as  material, mind formed concepts of Divine Ideas, it all becomes easier to view the issues of the world without distress. We no longer experience joy simply because something or some experience is very good or very bad, but we experience joy now because we are aligned with Truth.  If I believe that my joy is determined by world concepts of what is good and what (TV ads) is not, then my joy will come and go- (duality). If my joy is the outer expression of a realized state of consciousness that knows completeness by virtue of being one with Source, then my joy is permanent and will manifest in those forms that bring fullness to my life which may not be the same as that which would bring joy to my neighbor.   Source manifesting Itself as me, is complete and whole.  Mind interprets the degree of my awareness of this truth, as my outer experience.

We are permitted preferences.  It is our Divine right as free will beings to have preferences as choices express our individuality.  Through enlightenment our choices  become increasingly based in truth and we begin to experience non-judgment and an unconditional love for the world; a world which we now understand to be struggling to rise above and understand the appearances of good and evil, even if most are not yet aware of it.                        
                                                                                                                               


                                                                                        2-21-2009